I'm Letting Go and Letting God

Over the past couple of days, there has been a lot of "stuff" stirring around inside of me.  And tonight at church, it all came together for me.  I'm not even sure how to say this, but sometimes it gets hard being a coach/teacher other moms rely on for direction.  And perhaps I've made it harder than it needs to be.  For years, I have believed that I have to have it all together if I am going to coach other moms.  I must practice what I preach all the time.

But really, I am just a regular mom with phenomenal coach training and 18 years of experience as a mom.  I'm regular in that I share the same struggles as any other mom out there.  I have a kid that acts out sometimes, and a teenager that I occasionally argue with.  I just got into an argument with my husband today, as a matter of fact, because sometimes he irritates me.  I've lived a very hard life, and have been through a lot of painful experiences in my life.  Most of them I have healed from, but I have the scars to prove I've been to battle with life.

So if ever I appear that my life is all together, please don't believe that.  Even though I coach other moms on how to live more satisfying lives, I learn from all my clients as well.  I was always afraid that if I didn't appear as if my life was perfect, who would want to hire me as a coach?  I'm so done with that ridiculous belief.  Yes, I try to stay positive.  Yes, I work hard at growing every day.  Yes, I've learned a lot in life that I apply today.  But I am not perfect, and neither is my family.  But I don't want to be perfect because...

I believe that God can use me just like I am.  Just like He can use you just like you are.  Some words spoken during our church lesson tonight struck a chord with me.  "Die daily.  Take up your cross daily."  Wow!  Every day, at the end of the day, I can let my imperfect self come before Christ, and receive His grace.  I can then turn every aspect of my life over to Him.  With open arms, I say "Here I am Lord.  Use me!"

So I tell you with all honesty.  Tell me your story.  I bet I experience it today, or have in the past.  Seven years ago I received a clear calling from God to become a coach, and here I am Lord.  Make my life an offering to moms just like me.

Comments

[Lori Radun]

Thank you Gillian for your acceptance and encouragement!

[Gillian]

Thank you so much for your humility in sharing that you struggle too sometimes. I am touched by your honesty. Even Mum's that seem to have it all together, have not really. We are all imperfect people on this Earth. We all need Jesus' strength and help to get through each day and the daily challenges. God gives grace and strength to help us to cope even if we are not aware of it.
We are all in the same boat in terms of each of us having struggles / problems/ challenges.
Thank you for your honesty and openness in sharing .

[Lori Radun]

Thank you Cindy so much for sharing your heart - I know exactly how you feel, because my feelings/struggles are the same.

[Cindy Vanhoff]

Thank you for this reminder.
God called me to be an organizer - and lately things haven't been as profitable as I would like. I have been ready to quit.
But then I remember, I didn't make this decision lightly or on my own. God asked me to do this and it's what I LOVE to do.
So, with His help, I will continue to do what I love and what He has asked me to share with others. The gift he gave to me. The gift to help others to discover how to become organized.
And my clients LOVE to hear how I have struggled with disorganization and how sometimes I still do. It let's them know I am human, and that's it's ok.
Our struggles make us better at what we do. Empathy is so important when working with others.
Again, thanks for the reminder to Let Go and Let God.
It is easy to sometimes forget...